I am going to admit something, I need to get this off my chest. I am a member of AARP, there, now I have said it. I am finally over this age issue. I am finally embrasing my entire being, and not bound by any concerns regarding that age thing. For years I lied about my age, I don’t think that I was ever 46 thru 50. I was those ages, but during that period of my life, I was scaling back those numbers, It got to be so cumbersome. I would fill out a form, and have to add/subtract/multiply numbers in order to maintain this unfortuante facade of denying my true age.
hmmmm? This photo? I think I was about 51 or 52, I can remember that top. Hays and Joanna were probably 11 and 12. So that would be about right for my age also. I think i was finally beginning to get real about my age by then. (I was looking for a photo of the years that I am referencing in this blog, can’t locate any)
Strange times for me back in the last years of my late 40’s. I was going through a lot of unhappy times. I divorced my 3rd (and last) husband, lost my business, had to figure out a way to support myself, and hitting 50.
I remember all of those times as extremely strained. I dated guy 17 years younger than I was, what a tragic relationship that was. Thank goodness, that is all behind me, and the age issue is also.
I am not so bound to my age, my job, my location, my life is much more free today. I am truly able to let go of things that used to be so important. I can find peaceful moments in life today. I still have challenges, but not the hardships I once did. I have found a humbleness in my existence that allows me to just BE.
I am a member of AARP online community. I even have put a blog on that site. I joined the “Singles Group” just for grins there today. Of course I may “unjoin” tomorrow, and no one will care. Knowing that is freedom.
Janice Joplin sang a song “Me and Bobby McGee” written by Kris Kristofferson, a line in that song… “Freedom just another word for nothing left to loose.” He was a smart guy that KK, I think he was a Rhodes Scolar himself. I like the words he wrote, I like my life today.
It snowed here last night, I am feeling the freshness in my head that white landscape provides.
no more worrying about my age, my life is good today.